Hello there. Sounds like the wheels are already turning. Just know that this is a one-way trip. There's no going back once you know too much. It's going to hurt quite a lot at first, but it does get better with time.
Your first priority now is the containment of information. You must not tell anyone you know about what you are doing right now. TRUST NO ONE. They WILL turn you in, no matter how much you think you can trust them. Trust no one. You need to know what you're doing before you'll be ready to engage any Witnesses on all this, should you choose to do so.
Secondly, you need to get independent as soon as possible--if you're not on your own yet, move out as soon as you've got the resources for it. (Not necessarily a rush, but it'll help you along if you do that.)
Thirdly, stay away from women, JW or not. This is the most important priority other than the containment of information. You're making a decision right now that will put you at odds with every individual in the organization. Don't be deceived by their charm or their looks or their false words. They will betray you, they will sell you out, you cannot and must not trust them. This is to be taken with the utmost of seriousness.
Last bit of advice, read, read, read. Use your Watchtower Library CD-ROM to verify and do your homework on whatever you learn. Your greatest ally will be knowledge. The more you understand about what is going on, the better equipped you will be if or when you are discovered. The fear drilled into us makes it hard to believe that we're not fooling ourselves about all this stuff. There is no harm in investigating and double-checking. As a June 2000 Awake! once said, "Good educators present both sides of an argument and encourage questions." Or something like that.
Well, keep us posted if you can. And...do be careful.
--sd-7