I'm asking this because I just weaned off of Paroxetine (Paxil) successfully. I say successfully because I'm not naseous or dealing with tremors, however that's not to say everything is peachy. I've felt within my brain something like pulses from time to time, as if my brain jumped with no rhyme or reason. I did some research and found out that this is commonly labeled as, brain zaps. Sometimes I feel it in my head only, other times the weird shocking sensation travels through my arms and legs. From what I've read, it's not permanent to experience these zaps, so at least I can look forward to it disapating somewhere down the road.
What's really bugging me out though, is my emotional state. My emotional pendulum is swinging from anger to mild frustration, to numbness. All day yesterday, I felt a frustration and rage that I cannot fathom. I just wanted to step into the middle of the courtyard adjacent to this office building, strip down to my boxers and just scream profanities at the top of my lungs, or find the nearest person who appears to be able to reasonably defend themselves and beat them senseless. Today however, I feel numb, and my concentration is way off. It's like I look at the work on my desk and momentarily I feel a slight panic because I don't know what I'm supposed to do, and then almost miraculously it comes back to me.
When I was on Paxil, my sex drive was null and void, although my appreciation for a woman never strayed. Since coming off though, I'm ready to declare smashfest on Whoopi and see if she has earned the right to call herself, Whoopi. Yet, when I converse with attractive coworkers or sisters in the congregation, or even just to notice someone attractive walking down the street, I feel almost nothing, and what I do feel, seems abnormal. It reminds me at times of the camera effect used for weird psychological scenes in movies/television, where the camera zooms in rapidly upon a character's head/face, and then it does a weird shaking effect. That's how I feel at times since coming off this stuff when conversing with other people. Other times it's like they're talking to me or at me, and I have to force myself to concentrate and stop looking through them.
I imagine all of this is temporary and I'm learning to live life again without any assistance from a pill, but I'm curious as to whether any of you have experienced this or similar?
edit post: meant to add, I have a weird feeling of cockiness and this inkling to simply not give a damn about my actions, anybody experience that too? Almost as if you have no problem living wreckless?