Rawrities, welcome and thanks for sharing your story!
A couple of comments. Your mom says, "it’s the best from other religions."
First of all, that is a LAME-ASS response to falsehood. It's either the Truth or it isn't; it's either God's Organization, or it isn't.
Nevertheless, Bertrand Russell once said something you may find useful in response to that:
"Either a thing is true or it isn't. If it is true you should believe it, and if it isn't you shouldn't. And if you can't find out whether it's true or whether isn't you should suspend judgment. It seems to me a fundamental dishonesty and a fundamental treachery to intellectual integrity to hold a belief because you think it's useful and not because you think it's true."
Rawrities: If I were to even mention any of these to my step dad I would probably get kicked out the house. ... they have this policy where if I don’t go I get kicked out the house. ... It makes me upset that even though I have always been good to them, they are willing to not speak to me and kick me out if I don’t follow their religion...
So true, they hold your beliefs hostage by bullying and manipulation. Not very Christ-like, is it?
Rawrities: I do not plan to get baptized and once I leave to university in another city, I plan to fade and then move out when I am done with school.
Good plan!
Rawrities: That is my story and how I slowly started to lose my mind.
Actually, it sounds like you're beginning to FIND your sanity!
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