I sympathize with you. You may feel there's no where to go. You might worry that you could lose all your friends and family.
You might believe it's better than the other religions and you should just "wait" on Jehovah/The Organization.
You might have doubts but you might feel a spiritual connection.
All I can suggest to you is to please think about your life. Think about how you squandered an education. Think about how many rules you must conform to or else, you will feel guilt or you know the elders will have to talk to you.
Think about all the wrong understandings, the flip flops, the errors that were made that you accepted because you were told it was as if Jehovah Himself was talking to you.
It's not too late to find a way out. It's never too late.