I'm lost (page 3)

What a nice post, and I hope you are doing well and that you revisit this page to update everyone on your well being. After reading the comments, I would add two things for you to think about. First of all, you are not alone. The struggle between religion and being gay has been experienced by so many people just like you. You should know that many of us have been through similar struggles, and emerged from it happy, healthy, and sane.

But I would also reiterate Fakesmile's comment of "this is your brain on religion." Having been there myself, and having met hundreds of other gay or lesbian exJWs, I will tell you that as long as you hang on to any portion of your JW upbringing, you will always have that struggle. Most religions (the JWs, in particular), will tell you that you are less of a person for being gay. They will always make you feel less worthy, less human, and conflicted. The struggle won't go away until you accept the fact that who you are (gay), is not a choice. You didn't ask for it, and it's not going to change. So I cringe when I see people quote scriptures to you. My experience has been that, as long as you hold on to religion, your conflict over being gay will never subside. It's a terrible thing to go through life, believing you are less human than religious people who believe they are more-righteous than you. It's terrible to go through life, beliving you should not exist. My advice to you is to let go of that. Embrace the love of those who truly care about you without religious intolerance, and move forward. There are thousands/millions of people out there just like you and me, and life is too short to spend it in misery and guilt. If there is a God, he loves you as you are.

I'm lost

Christ Alone

Scott Terry

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