I feel sorry for this Guy......

Prisca

This is from a thread on H20. I've deleted his name even though he gave his full name in the thread.

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O.K. I've never did one of these befor so bare with me! I am a single male. I am highly interested in the truth. I know the difference between right and wrong, but for some reason I keep makeing the wrong choices. I am a lover, and I've spent awile looking for a perfect women for me. I keep thinking I will find a meek worldly women, and by some means be able to bring bolth of us into the truth. My Mother thinks I'm going abought it all wrong. She thinks I should find "one of the cute girls fropm the Kingdome Hall". Witch I'd love to do, but I'm so scared of saying the wrong thing. To me wittnesses are the moast beautiful, and loveing people on the planet (I'm crying now.)OK now I'm smileing agine. I feel so evil around wittnesses. Like I'm some kind of monster or something, and I'm not I have a hart as big as the ocean. I don't know what to say around wittness girls. I become petrified in front of them. When I go to meeetings with my Mom I'm allways trieng to keep my eyes off of wittness girls, because of the hole don't look as to have a passion thing. I know my Mom is right by saying I shouldn't be looking for worldly wemen though. Because I follow wemen. By that I mean if i were to date a protistant girl I'd be a prodistant for her, and live in a lie, and die for it in the end. I know that of myself. So does satin, and he has used it meany times. I haven't been to a meeting in a long time. Right now I wouldn't feel right in one. Because I'm fighting back the world, and donn't wanna drag any of my ways into a kingdom hall. There is hope for me though. I just need a friend to help. So that brings me to this website. I know whoever reads this, if anyone does is probly thinking I better not get involved with this guy, but plese don't think that. I need your help. I need encouregement. I sat up late the past two nights thinking abought this and praying to Jehovah for ansers. Then on the second night I began surching the web for this site. I had heard of it awile back ago from another worldly male who is much like myself. I didn't think much of it then. The other night it shot into my head. The same day I ended up finding an awake tape in a truck stop that was quite soothing to know Jehovah is still pulling for me. So maybe I am salvagable. Maybe I will change soon enof. I know every time I pray from deep in my hart God sends me an anser the next day. I know Jehovah doesn't speak to us in words anymore, but he has spoken to me in other forms. Publicashons, tapes, the bible, and through Brothers and sisters like you. Whoever you may be. I'm just looking for encouregment and help now, and if i can change, maybe more when I do, and I will if you, Whoever you are, can find it in your hart to help me. Wether this is right or wrong to do I don't know. If you have to, ask an elder for advise. Me I don't have one to ask now. So anyway my Mom says I should find a wittness girl and it would make bolth of us proud if i did. I'm not looking to pull anyone from the truth. Wittnesses are my heros, and I wouldn't ever dream of slaping the face of Jehovah. You all are so strong to me, and I need someone to help me find the strenth to let this world go. Thats all and thats it. I live in Sedalia, Missouri I have a son here, and alot of bad relashons. I hate to leave my son, but I know he will come to me for ansers in years to come. If I don't leave this town I'm doomed I think. All wittnesses seem to end there letter with quots from the Scriptures so here is my favorate part of the Skriptures to explain why I think this will help. My favorite part of the Scriptures is 1 Corinthians 13. But this part is the best way to explain this, I think. For at present we see in hazy outlines by means of a mental mirrior, but then it will be face to face. At preseent I know partially, but then i shall know accurately even as I am accurately known. Now however there remain faith, hope , and love, these three, but the greatest of these is LOVE.
1 Corinthians chapter 13 verse 12,13
Dustin H C*******
Thank you for takeing the time to read my novel! lol
I love to wright. I should have been a novelest, but thats just an old dream of mine. However I do wright poetry, and if u like u can look at my poems on www.poetry.com under my name. My poetry says alot abought the deeper parts of me. Oh, and there will be two D***** C******** listed. Mine are the ones on the top of the page.

ozziepost

Sounds sad....do you think it's real? So many spelling mistakes it looks almost intentional?

Amazing

He's still walking that long road of daily pain, believing that the problem is with him ... that he must some how find a way to get 'cured' so he can be 'worthy' ... then he believes he will find the right woman and have peace. He has faded dreams and abandoned hopes. He will eventually leave the religion, though having his mother in it will make his decision more difficult. He is in a lot of pain ... never ending ... the religion will become too hard to take ... but whether he can overcome the guilt is another question.

PS: He is also a very typical JW man. He reveals the kind of suffering many or most go through, but could never in a million years feel safe enough to discuss with anyone they know. I am surprised he used his real name ... maybe an oversight.

Perry

If it is a real post, then the poor fella is probably grossly undereducated, extremely lonely, and completely mentally trapped. He thinks people should ask an elder to find out if they should even talk to him!

It is this kind of carnage that that is the true legacy of the Society. Anybody with half a brain can plainly see the cycle of self-destruction. He can't make more responsible decisions because he feels so cruddy about himself. He can't feel better about himself because his only support group is the witnessses and they've got him beleiving he's not good enough for God.

Simple love and validation as a human being would sovle his problem in not too long a time.

I have to believe that if Christ were to suddenly appear for an encore, this guy would be one of the first ones he'd visit. A visit and a meal with the son of God while the elders and GB had to wait at the end of the line would go a long way toward him realizing what his true value is.

All those perfect witnesses would simply look foolish once he hung out with Christ for a while and found out that Jesus really didn't want anything from him....just friendship.

When down trodden people were given great personal value two thousand years ago, three and a half years of validation changed the course of world history.

The problem today is not religion, it is the institutionalization of simple kindness and caring by whatever means.

avengers

If this post is real then it's a classic case. Most JW's are trapped in Dubland.
I don't trust it though. I've seen this kind of typos before and it doesn't seem real to me. !! Watch Out!!

BluesBrother

I second the remarks of "Avenger" it looks phoney, for someone claiming to be American and having a son., so he is not all that young.

Nevertheless it raises a valid point as to how do young witness males learn to cope with natural feelings and passions?

I, like lots of us here, grew up within the Org. and I well rember the feelings of worthlessness and guilt that regularly went through for things I later found out were entirely normal to young men .

I seemed that everything that I wanted, or felt inside , was "untheocratic" or immoral and i was therefore not worthy of being there in "Gods Org."

I grew out of it as we do , and I hope this young man does the same

JBean

I'm sorry, but can you say "Prozac"????? He "loves to write"???? He also needs to learn how to spell!!!! Maybe this is why he can't find a woman. In all seriousness, this guy does have some real issues here...

RedhorseWoman

This is really sad. If it is real, and it could very well be, it just points out the gross distortions of what life should be and what constitutes a good person that are fostered by the WTBTS.

JWs are perfect, wonderful people? Well, they certainly tell everyone that they are. Reality is a far cry from the fantasy, however, and it's just sad that some are made to feel so unworthy because of a lot of Brooklyn hype.

Quotes

This has to be a farce, no? He misspelled "Protestant" two different ways, with only 4 words separating:

By that I mean if i were to date a protistant girl I'd be a prodistant for her

He even mispelled "Witnesses" and also "scripture" (after spelling it correctly once):

All wittnesses seem to end there letter with quots from the Scriptures so here is my favorate part of the Skriptures to explain why I think this will help.

At to top it all off, he wants to be a writer:

I love to wright. I should have been a novelest, but thats just an old dream of mine.

With such a poor command of the most basic writing skills, this is the funniest part! This *MUST* be a joke. Could anyone actually be this this pathetic for real?.......

Wait a minute... we are talking about a JW... and one from Sedalia, Missouri (sooooooo-weeeeeeee)....

Ok, I take it all back. This one is legitimate and on-the-level.

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SixofNine

I'm suspicious too.

But it could be real. If so, it says more about retardation and inbreeding and probably abuse than it does about Jehovah's Witnesses. Honestly.

However, I do believe that the Witness religion, while not causing all the problems we tend to accuse them of, exacerbates these problems and often is the reason people don't get adequate help. Just as bad I suppose, as the fact is that life is full of problems.

Still, this type of character could really use the hand of a loving God to reach down and say "it's going to be ok, I'm with you", to reach down and tweak this poor guys' brain chemistry into a state of functionality. I haven't ever seen that happen.

I have a nephew who, just a few years ago, this fellow might have been. He joined the Army, even though he was a believer. He was fairly quickly booted out, on a mental disability. Best thing that ever happened to him. With good mental healthcare and counseling, he has disabused himself of a need to please witnesses. Witnesses who, btw, would NEVER fully accept an eccentric like him. He is still, by most peoples standards, a very odd duck, but I am amazed at how functional and rational he is now.

I feel sorry for this Guy......

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