Ya know what! I'm tired of being polite and nice to JWs. Esp when they try to shame you to your face with a smile.
Even more so when they are in my family! But I’ve just about had with my JW family. I really want to scream at my grandma. Every time - and I know it’s my own fault -I go to her house to visit, she slyly tries to tell me that I ought to be ashamed of my decision to leave the truth.
Yesterday, I went off on her. She is in her 70s and I just couldn’t take it. I’m pregnant right now, and maybe it was the hormones, but I went off.
She said she read the text a few days ago and the topic was about those ppl who have left the truth and their probably ashamed of themselves and regret their decisions and all they need to do is talk to the elders.
I said, “Well that doesn’t apply to me. I am not ashamed of anything I’ve done. I’ve made my choices and I stand by them.”
She said with a smirk, “You’re not?”
“Nope. And besides no elder in the two years that I have left has ever came by to check on me. And do you really think that now that I am pregnant I’m going to waddle my ass in there and “confess” and try to be all shamed face? For what? If they cared THAT much they should have brought themselves around and said something to me a long time ago. Everybody knows where I live and if they don’t, they sure as hell can find out! Hell, last I heard everybody in the circuit knows I’m pregnant. And I wonder whose big mouth said something.”
She didn’t say anything back.
And what pisses me off the most. She told me to my face she isn’t coming to my baby shower, because my fiancé and I aren’t married yet.
OH LORDY! She made me so mad with that one.
I called her a hypocrite.
Just two months ago, a non JW niece of hers had a baby shower (And mind you she is not married) and my grandma was so0o0o0o excited and happy to go to that baby shower. This is a niece she hasn’t seen in over five years!! I have never ever met the cousin in my life, because when we were little THAT side of the family was off limits because they weren’t JWs.
So now all of a sudden, it’s okay to go to a non-believer’s celebration, because “oh they don’t know any better; show pity on them” mentality. But for her own flesh and blood granddaughter, she will NOT attend my baby shower because I stopped “believing, underlying a damn magazine, and bothering ppl on Saturday mornings”??
Grrrrr!!! WTF??????????
I asked her shouldn’t family come first. Her instant automatic reply, “NO! Jehovah comes first.”
There is no getting into her head.
I cried and I got so mad in the same minute. I feel bad for going off on my grandmother like that, but DAMN IT! I’m tired of being polite and bitting my tongue when these folks think they have whatever right to say what they want to you just because of a watchtower org!! It's sick.
I ran into old two sisters from my old hall the other day doing table witnessing. Force of habit, I just smiled. They looked at my belly and looked up at me, and gave me the most evil mean mug ever!
Goodness, I just wanted to punch them in the face!!!