I don't know how you figured out who i am but i know that you have been reading my posts and i know that you know that it is me. That conversation revealed it all. I don't know if you plan on telling the elders or have already done so. I just want to tell you that i am not crazy or mentally diseased. I am just learning how to think.
My doubts started a while back and i know that you have doubts also or you wouldn't be here. Do you remember when we were talking about how burdensome pioneering is? WE were wondering how it could be so burdensome yet Jesus said it would be light and refreshing, right? That's because Jesus isn't involved.
I feel so lost right now. I'm not even going to lie and tell you that every thing is perfect. But i would rather be lost and hope that I truly find my way than close my eyes and beg my mind to believe a lie.
Listen, everything is not right. You know that. We spoke about many things. I'm not trying to lure you out but we were really good friends. I tried speaking with the CO, the elders, older brothers and sisters in the congregation and you even told me to try a fleece test. None can answer deut. 18:22
Listen, You can call me anytime. E-mail me anytime. Come to my house any time. Whether it's today, tomorrow or 20 years from now, i'm here. Just start thinking okay, please.
I love you S and i miss you girl.