I couldn't handle the thought that of all the people I knew at school, most of them seemed like genuinely good nice people, coming from good nice homes with loving parents who were trying to teach their kids to be good citizens -- yet God didn't care about all that, and all these people would end up being "bird food" at Armageddon. I also knew plenty of JWs who were corrupt, and always looking for a way to screw "the system" instead of paying Caesar's things to Caesar. Somehow that just didn't add up.
The fact that women were to be "in subjection".... MAJOR MAJOR burr in my saddle. Especially when there were men in leadership roles who were glaringly ignorant, could barely read beyond a Grade 6 level, and whose poor speaking skills were assaulting the congregation's ears week after week after week. The ones that particularly irritated me were the ones who said NEW-Q-LAR WAR instead of NEW-KLEE-AR WAR; or who tried to pass off erroneous scientific information as fact from the platform. One I remember thought he was being SO brilliant when he was talking about the "miracle of birth" and instead of using the Watchtower Approved™ term "birth canal" (in place of "vagina") declared from the platform that babies emerged from the mother's Fallopian Tubes!!
The stupid little tyrannical rules about just about EVERYTHING used to drive me up the wall. From the level of hemlines and necklines, to the wearing of skirts while going door-to-door in -40C weather, to the no coloured shirts for men, the length of sideburns, no facial hair for men (I guess it was ok for sisters), no Smurfs, nothing to keep children quietly occupied during meetings, being judged by the number of doors your car has relative to its suitability for service.... eventually it just became burdensome to listen to the Pharasaical hypocrites week after week.
Love, Scully
