Pyramid, you have a PM.
I was an MS, need greater in foreign countries, was in a domestic foreign language hall, parts on the assembly, pioneer on and off. Wife pioneered for 15 years straight. Started when she was 13.
I remember an elder once questioning her about her time or some crap. She was very sensative and started crying. I see my wife and asked her who was on the phone. I took the phone, it was brother dumba$$. I asked him what he was talking to my wife about, and does his wife know he is calling and speaking to married women. I told him he never speaks to my wife without me present, and she is coming off the list because she has "lost her joy".
That was a few years ago. My doubts in things like blood, the GB, df'ing, and some other things had taken hold. I thought i could effect good inside by being a voice of reason. I am a pretty good speaker, and refused to teach what i did not believe in. That was my justification. Once I realized that no matter what, my "performance" would just be a feather in the cap of the GB directing the work, I had a bad conscience. Then I had a nasty run in with an elder who moved in. I think I was already kind of done, so I just let em have it. Caught them in lies, embarrased them in front of the CO, but by then the rails had fallen off. I was removed. Left the hall, still got harrassed. 1 year later, I stopped going to meetings and started thinking for myself. Been inactive for 6 months.