I've read all of your comments and I can attest to the truthfulness of it all. It's amazing that you can be inactive and a fader for example and be totally still brainwashed by the BORG in that you still refuse to do research, because the G.B. is dead set against it. And in the back of your mind the CULT THINK STILL SAYS TO YOU DON'T DO IT.
But I will tell you that as a former elder and a fader it took me many years to wake up and finally read anything that was considered APOSTATE IN NATURE.
A friend and coworker who is an ex-bethelite asked me a question, "Have you heard of Ray Franz and I looked at him and said No, but I know of Fred Franz the former president of the society. When he realized I wasn't going to freak out on him he proceeded to inlighten me about a book "Crisis of conscience" and "In search of Christian freedom" that peaked my Interest and I began reading. And here I am FREE from guilt and worry of an Armageddon that will never come.
My sister also who has been disfellowshiped for 30 years was always guilt ridden as she would tell me, so I recommended the books by Ray Franz and let her borrow them. She couldn't put the book down and finally she thanked me for helping her to FINALLY BREAK FREE. Man that made me feel Good!!! That we discovered the truth about the truth.
So never give up on your friends or family, it will pay off in the long run.
Kojack