Thank you all for the warm welcomes! I will write my own story at some point so as not to hijack Aunt Fancy's thread. After leaving the JWs, cancer was one of my few battles the last 2 years presented, so much for one person to bare and I am still coming to terms with it all.
Aunt Fancy: I found being dxd with cancer shortly after finding the TTATT didnt enable me to feel anger about being raised in a cult until now, 2 years later but I don't really dwell on the fact as I cannot change it but instead I look for the positive I drew from the experience (to tell the truth it is hard to find the positive, but you have to do it to survive - it makes us reslilient) as I feel anger and bitterness could kill me or at least bring back the cancer - literally.
I do find that at times I have PSTD or thats what I would call it, from the realization that I lost many friends and family at a time I needed them most and realizing the fact that I had the big C - I am the first in my family to be dxd with such. The pain of losing parents is immense to the point I feel orphaned - I am waiting for my elder/father to state to me that the reason my life turned out the way it did is because I left Jah.
The silver lining that I focus on is that I do have my husband who has stuck by my side and I am grateful for him!! Its all a matter of perspective.
Keep your head up, I too have good and bad days!! Both C's are psycologically mind altering, you need to dig deep to realize how resilient you are! Keep focussing on what you HAVE now. The present is a present.