Cant believe what I have just agreed to.. an old friend has asked me to put her and her family up for the local district assembly, and despite the fact that she and her husband know we no longer attend she still wants to come and I agreed because I didnt want to upset her and for old time sake! I am so annoyed with myself,I should have made some excuse because I dont like lying and thats what I will be doing. In the begining I didnt go to meetings because of what happened to us,but now I have real doubts about this "organisation" and I realy would never go back to ANY meeting not just this congregation. When she rings I say all the "right" things but as she is talking to me, in my head I am thinking.."God your such a stupid woman" thats terrible! Just want OUT!!! Its too late now. Its not fair because their quite nice little people but all I have in common with them is a shared past. Very sad. How did I get here??