only fading begins can understand me and my pain .and punkofnice , why should i even bother to post in this forum if i am telling lies? send me a p.m. and i will tell you my fb too.Has anyone of you experienced something like me? if not then your answer ,even respectful , cant really count for me .By the way , i have post before about this story so you can follow through and see the story . I was an orthodox. Now i dont believe in anything.I tried more than anything to satisfy her guilts..i failed.. but i didnt deserve this kind of behaviour..i only gave her love ,she treated me like a foreigner at the end :( the problem is that she is a close friend with my worldy cousin ,from which we kept it secret and we still do , and i also want to tell that to my cousin about what happened as she doesnt know anything.At the very start of this situation, my cousin warned her because she knew what happened before but she continued with me and i took it as a positive sign..My cousin also told me that this girl was a jw but i didnt knew anything about them i just replied ''so what'' ..so ignorant and poor me :( every jw that i told him all the story for days told me that i should give her in because she played with me :( its a bit of justice served ,its a bit of revenge ,its a bit of a way to release my pain..
It is impossible to suffer without making someone pay for it; every complaint already contains revenge . Friedrich Nietzsche