soooo i fired up the interwebs to come looking for the date of the memorial, as a dear friend who stood by me through those crazy and sadly wasted years in dub-dumb mentioned she had seen a still faithful member at the library... she said he invited her to "the world wide memorial" .... and i was pretty sure that there had been a full moon yada yada and the memorial had come and gone....
i ended up coming back here to verify and realized she must have been asked to that lame ass event where "the same talk is given from every platform" and ooooh how fired up can you be about virtually nothing?
anyway, nice to see the place is still rockin' and that there is a continuity of personnel (that means old timers!) to assist the multitudes who are finally becoming AWAKE to the scam... i think i hung out here for about 3-4 years being pissed and delighting in the evisceration of that heartless mutha... now, frankly, i don't give a rat's ass about any of it... except to feel genuine pangs for those who struggle with family still in and all the heartache and distress that generates.... that being the main reason i will always loudly decry, denigrate and denouce the cult as a cult, no matter who is asking or telling me anything about the it
just the highlights and i am off again...
- my youngest child, a female to male (FtM) transgender man, is nearly two years into his hormone replacement therapy and very anchored in his transition... (turns 20 this summer!) his voice is so deep and his laughter genuinely melodious!
- i am so far removed from the cult and its membership that i find more often than not i cannot conjure names! funniest one was a guy named "mike"... the same name as my husband .... took me 3 days to actually recall (we were attending the same tech college, so i saw him regularly)
- i completed an AAS and also a therapetic massage program leading to becoming aLMT
- we are converting our 5+ acres of rural residential property to a permaculture site, planning to grow sustainable food crops and use this 5 bedroom house as a teaching/intern facility... we have our permits from the city for 2 mini geldings and 24 chickens... the quail arent considered poultry, just fowl!
- the question that has long plagued me, as to how could ANY thinking, reasonably intelligent person deliberately engage cognitive dissonance and decide to join a cult and drag their family in with them has been answered to my satisfaction through extensive psychotherapy for PTSD... said my therapist to me, when i asked that question, and i answered her questions about the hows and whats, "your motivation stemmed from the experiences of an abusive history where you had no safety... they told you they could keep your children safe from destruction..." (in case you missed it, they lied)
life is hard in these times, but life is good... i am beyond glad that i woke up from the delusion and now fully embrace this one sure life with all the attendant joys and sorrows... i sincerely hope all of you are somewhere in that neighbourhood!
faithlessly yours
chickpea
