Well I was brought up a witness, but always had little misgivings. Mainly that who I found myself attracted to didn't sit well. I know the argument about sin kind of covers the fact that I was born like this from their point of view, but the vitriol that I faced at most meetings talking about "the gays" seemed neither christian nor even WTS-endorsed, merely an opportunity to air homophobic feelings. I have known at least a dozen gay and lesbian witnesses, all but two have left and found partners, just like me!
I am not d'fd and keep my communication with witnesses to a minimum (I have SO many ex-jw friends on Facebook, I clearly lost a lot of current witnesses when they saw who I was 'associating' with. I moved from my original hall 4 years ago, and never moved my cards. I think I'm near-enough safe, although if they fancy a witchhunt, who am I to stop them.
I am so glad your cousin helped you out when you needed it Mum. We all need someone to run to. I don't think most R&F Witnesses are bad people, although you get the power-hungry elders and sycophantic servants and the worship of COs and DOs... Boy am I glad to be free and able to think and express myself. But in addition to escaping, you can also play blackjack all night, and see Celine in concert any time you fancy! (Which I hope is never... :-))
And clarity, I am a huge Tori Amos fan, and Frog on My Toe is one of her less well-known songs. So entirely someone else's imagination I'm afraid.
Thank you both for the welcome.