Lisa Rose, I hope you can find an online cause that can suit you. Learning and studying is actually very liberating. Sometimes I almost feel like a dry sponge just absorbing all the knowledge I can. And it feels so so good!
Sophie and Julia, I totally agree with the pure enjoyment of reading something that has been beautifully written (I often choose my fiction based on it's literary style) and just entering into the story and getting totally absorbed in it.
That's something you never get in WT pubs and as I write I'm just wondering : maybe that's why they always hastle us to meditate. I mean WT meditation is more like forcibly putting yourself into a story, which just goes to show how badly WT stuff is written. I mean how many stories do you know where the author writes on the back of the book - 'you must stop and meditate as you read this story'? The publisher would just laugh the author out of his office and bin the manuscript!