I think my mother has lost it. I really do and I am in fear that she is literally losing touch with reality to some degree.
Even my father is telling me that her responses to me are growing weirded:
The scriptures tell us that we can be wrathful.......but don't sin. My anger toward you was justified. So I put off responding to you. However, the longer I waited, the farther I wanted to be from you. Of course the devil wants Jehovah's servants to be divided, for family members who serve Jehovah to be divided. And if we allow him a place we will act earthly, animalistic and demonic. (James 3:15) Each time I wrote to you, I prayed for Jehovah to direct me & give me the words that would touch your heart. If you carefully consider them, you'll see that I am truly concerned for your spiritual welfare. <my wife's name removed> wild screaming and accusations on the phone....why? Where is she getting these things from? Voices? I fear for her! My feelings are varied <my name removed> . The beginning of the letter you left in the door reminded me of her and brought to mind the scripture I earlier mentioned...James3:15. Yes, you have a right to your feelings and beliefs and as a mother who loves you, I have the right to fight for my son's spiritual life. When I mentioned removing you from my medical directive it was not to imply that you wouldn't respect my decision to refuse blood. It was because you appear to want to leave Jehovah's organization. If that is the case, then I'll need someone who is loyally standing by the channel that Jehovah is using, the faithful slave. Regarding what I said in the letter that applied to <my wife's name removed> , you read it, it was sent to you both. Jehovah instructs us........... "let the aged women be reverent in behavior, not slanderous, ........teachers of what is good; 4 that they may recall the young women to their senses". As an older woman, as her mother in the faith and as her mother in law, I did that. I don't regret it because it was what I should have done. If she feels she is above accepting counsel, so be it. I hope that you can see she needs it ......
<my name removed> . we have a fight against wicked spirit forces. You know that. In times past, many of Jehovah's servants have been physically attacked. Some have been spiritually attacked. That is worse. You have no desire to attend your meetings, or pray, see no need to daily read and meditate on Jehovah's word, lose confidence in the anointed of Jehovah. That's a sneaky, subtle attack. We may not even realize it. Someone may give us something or we could get an item that previously belonged to someone who in some way has ties to spiritistic practices. Could it be something left in your new home that you were not aware of? Or maybe an interest in things the media says against Jehovah's organization.
We considered in a recent magazine, the point of being loyal to Jehovah is also reflected in how we view our brothers and sisters. Do we always just see the negatives or do we value their positive qualities? Since coming to <her new congregation> , Jehovah has blessed me with many new sons and daughters in the faith. I truly have grown to love them and draw close to them, value them. I found wonderful qualities among them and it surprised me because I had been told negative things about them. I began to reflect that you didn't use to be such a negative thinker. You were positive, bright...... I'm still trying to put my finger on when the change came about. I do know that if you are always around negative influences, if you don't take the initiative to turn toward the positive, you can become someone you don't like. It reminds me of a point that <kid I studied with and is now at Bethel> made in a beautiful talk he gave at our hall. It had to do with allowing the bad or negative we are around to influence us so much, we become the thing we hate. I never forgot that because some circumstances I've lived through caused me to become negative.
When children don't come from a loving family, if they have no one to trust or care for their best interest, if they are not taught to respect their parents or are exposed to things that destroy their trust, they never respect or truly trust anyone. They also undermine the love, trust and respect of others. They only change if they allow Jehovah to heal them and keep their eyes on Jehovah's future promises for us. Don't allow anyone to drive you away from your family, <my name removed> . We all love and care for you. Your fleshly and spiritual family are here for you. <this is a shot at my wife>
Tomorrow I have a procedure to go through and I didn't want to have bad feelings towards you. How you feel is up to you. The course you take is up to you. I'll keep you in my prayers. As I previously mentioned, I'm forwarding your wife's letter. Pay close attention.
Your Mother