Hello Gloria and welcome. After all the madness of the last few days its nice to see some 'normality' come back again!
I apprectiate your still being strong in the Truth and I admire your courage to mingle with what other Witnesses may term "apostates". We don't exactly like that term to be applied to ourselves, as many of us still have a belief in Jehovah and His promises, it's just that our consciences don't permit us to follow a man-made religion.
As someone who was raised as a Witness, I agree with RedhorseWoman's words about not being allowed to read and examine our own religion. What I mean is is this : have you read any books by those who used to be Witnesses? Read about their experiences in the Truth? Or books written by academics about the Witnesses? If you haven't, is it because you just don't want to, or is it because you have been discouraged to?
If we are not allowed to read what others write about our religion, then why should we expect others to read what the Society writes about their religion??
If we can't examine our own religion and read writings about the Witnesses and the history of the Society, then why on earth should we read information about other religions? Plenty has been written by the Society about other religions, the Catholic Church in particular. Do you believe what you read?
I would encourage you to have an open mind when it comes to the history of the Society and the developments of their teachings. Examine what you believe with what the Bible says and listen to your conscience.