I turned in a request (by letter) for reinstatement last week and I’ve been informed that I will meeting with my original judicial committee this coming Wednesday. I’m very excited and happy, but at the same time I want to be careful how I conduct myself. In the last meeting in early March, my reinstatement request was turned down. Basically, I explained to the brothers that I had a problem with my personality and that I give in easily to anger. I also told them that since my disfellowshipping, I have abandoned my immoral ways and had started an honest research of the truth. I need the truth to sink into my heart and I needed to examine the scriptures myself. All three brothers were very nice, but said that I needed to work a bit on my anger and self-control before being reinstated.
I think I have made much progress in being honest with myself and others. I have made big mistakes in myself, even in this board by taking advantage of anonymity, but I feel I have improved personality wise.
I plan to explain to the brothers in the committee what I have been researching. I want to be truthful with them. I want to be reinstated into Jehovah’s organization, but I don’t want to start on the wrong foot by hiding the fact that I have been in this forum researching the truth.
I hope all of you understand my need of Jehovah and his people.