The idea of 'unlearning' and going back is unthinkable. But, you made me think about it for a second, really weird mental exercise. So now it's just ridiculous.... I'd never want to go back to that half-life!
Are you thankful to know TTAT or not?
by laverite 38 Replies latest watchtower beliefs
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punkofnice
Good for you Laverite and all power to your elbow mate.
If I'm honest I miss the delusion of a divine being looking out for me. I miss the delusion that I'll never die. I miss the delusion that the manufactured trademark god of the WBT$ will make everything right. I miss the delusion that I'll see my deceased family and friends again.
I don't miss the Governing paedophile ring Body(TM) worship that didn't sit right with me. I don't miss the guilt fear and phobia. I don't miss door knocking. I don't miss the tiring ''works(TM)'' that go with being a JW. I don't miss the pillocks I had to pretend to like at the ''meetings(TM)''.
I do miss the delusionary fairy tale side of things but all in all I'd rather know reality. I'd rather know that when I'm dead there's nothing else, it's total oblivion. I'd rather know there's no imaginary man in the sky that will wave a magic wand. At least this way I know what to expect of people.
My opinion of humanity has gone down the toilet as a result. I am very much turning into a Clint Eastwood character or Judge Dredd..............aloof, angry, untrusting, cynical and feeling I've had my life and family stolen and destroyed by the watchtower corporation(R).....not because I've ''turned my back on Jehovah(TM)''.............how can I turn my back on a non existant twat.
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CuriousButterfly
Lav you made something of yourself! I'm so happy you have beautiful kids and are truly happy not being closeted. You're a good soul from the inside out.
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ILoveTTATT
I don't know... maybe my ID in this forum will give you a clue as to how I feel about TTATT?
=P
I love it, I freaking love it!
Despite everything, though, I still believe in God/a higher power/certain parts of the Bible... I am glad I learnt it at a young age, and not older. I think that older people learning TTATT have a hard time... It's the reverse of telling a kid that Santa Claus does not exist... the younger the kid, the worse it is for him/her.
I know I will soon lose my family and all my friends, unless I possibly can open their minds before I go out... nonetheless, I have (if I live to be 80 or something) my whole life ahead of me... a happy, normal life!
I LOVE THE TRUTH ABOUT THE TRUTH!
Over and out
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144001
I'm not thankful at all to know the truth about the truth. Rather, I wish I didn't know TTATT because I wish I had never been raised as a JW, which would have rendered such knowledge irrelevant to my life.
Being raised as a JW is akin to having your parents impose a disability upon you. The best they can do is pray that when you become an adult, you will forgive their tragic stupidity.
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Phizzy
I am so thankful to know the Truth about "the truth".
The Cognitive Dissonance was so loud in my head in the last couple of years before I walked away, that it was driving me mad.
In common with many others above, it is such a relief to be able to read and absorb so much that is really Truth, and to be free to examine ideas and theories that may or may not be, but just the true freedom to consider them is wonderful.
I was also, unbeknowns to me, suffering from depression whilst within the JW's, since leaving I have sought and benefited from Therapy, which helped me see that the problem sprang from the religion and my upbringing, and how to deal with that, and how to keep on an even keel.
All that would not have happened but for finding this site, and learning TTATT, and also learning on here about normal life and normal people.
I am forever in debt to Simon and all those who keep the site going, and to the good people, past and present, of JWN.
Thank you all so very much !
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punkofnice
I remember the first time I felt free of the watchtower(R) mind control. I watched a TV show about volcanos and their effect on the U.K.
For the first time I watched it with a totally open mind and enjoyed the ride.
The fact that everything annoys or depresses me now is beside the point. That was a grand day!
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vikesgirl101
I think knowledge is a powerful tool. If I hadn't been bound to the religion heart and soul, how could I possibly appreciate the happiness and freedom that I feel now? Occasionally I wish I would've given the opportunity to experience the camaraderie that my classmates felt,to enjoy sports or birthdays. But I'm thankful that I've given all of that to my children. They also have the opportunity to really make something of themselves. That is priceless. Bringing they were raised in it up until a few years ago, we often reminisce of the "old days". They are so thankful that the three of us have been as to grow together.
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Laika
I've lost so much but I'm running on the hope that it will be worth it in the end. I know I will never go back.