Hello Happier,
I am so glad all these comments have helped you. You truly have had a terrible experience. I agree with Robert and Adam that said check out some websites especially jwfacts and jwsurvey. I personally found them useful. Also the BITE model by Steve Hassan was great too.
I agree also that when the pain of losing your best friend ever surfaces, it’s good to come here and vent, we are here to support you whenever you need it.
It’s nice of you to say you have a good relationship with your mum. That shows you are a genuine and thoughtful person. You have done really well for yourself at age 20 moving to a new city, congratulations!!!!! I am so very glad to see that you are now happier.
Warm regards
70wksofyrs