Hi, my name is Brock Talon. Yes, I'm a recovering JW-aholic.

LivingTheDream

Hi, my name is Brock Talon. Yes, I'm a recovering JW-aholic.

My addiction started just around my 6th birthday. My parents started studying with a nice old JW lady who taught them that wicked, selfish, pagan people celebrated birthdays, certainly not true Christians. So, I had my last birthday party at that time, clueless of what would become of my life after that.

Ironically, as restrictive as my parents were on me, they really weren't on themselves. For example, my father never gave up his watching boxing on TV or became even a Ministerial Servant and my mother never pioneered, studied with anybody else or cleaned the Kingdom Hall even one time. Still, they expected near perfection out of me, asking me to give up everything and expecting me to pioneer, etc.

I eventually was guilt-tripped into becoming a Bethelite, which I thought would "save" me, but found that my guilt would be even worse when coming out of it. I kept my JW addiction for quite some time. It's difficult to lose such an addiction as your whole world seems to revolve around it. Finally, nearing middle age, I was able to kick the habit.

I've been Kingdom Hall free now for over 13 years.

I thank you for your support.

Brock Talon

nonjwspouse

Thank YOu for your wonderful postings and stories, and now book.

That was some of the best reading I have come across in a long time. It gives me strength, and laughter all at the same time.

Very good Brock.

whathappened

We are all happy to get out of this sick cult. Glad you got out sooner than I did, sorry I didn't get out sooner.

WingCommander

I've been meaning to tell you that I laugh every time I see your pen name, as it really sounds like a porn star name....kind of like, "Dirk Diggler".

lol. Welcome back bud!

Bangalore

Welcome to JWN.

Bangalore

lost

Hi and welcome.

zed is dead

Brock,

Welcome!!

zed

Quandry

I see that you are getting welcomed, but are not new here....but let me say.....YES! to your recovery.

I also am in recovery. It never really leaves you, but after a few years the guilt thing lessens and the urge to really live kicks in. Are your parents still living? How have they adapted to your "recovery?"

life is to short

I love that analogy of the religion being a drug. I have thought about that a lot since I woke up to it not being the "truth".

It is so much like getting a high. It starts when you are young and do a demo on the service meeting or even before that when you are three or four years old and you raise your hand to answer a question from the WT. Everyone is so proud of you and you get a high off it and then you chase it the rest of your life only you have to do more and more and more to get the same high and it is never as good as that first high.

When you are in your teens when all of the other kids are out having fun in the summer camping, swimming, just being kids doing and making memory's. You dress up in hot cloths and auxiliary pioneer but then that is not enough so you are pushed to drop out of school to reg pioneer at least where I lived that was encouraged. Soon that is not enough to get the high and as a women there is not much more room to do anything and so you loose the high which pushes you try and try to do more.

I was able as a women to go to Bethel but not many are and even at Bethel you never get the high you seek as you never can do enough even there.

After awhile you are a true addict away's wanting that first high that you can never get again and you wake up one day realizing that you wasted your life chasing a drug that will never give you fulfillment.

Thank you Living a Dream for all you have done, looking forward to reading your book.

LITS

leavingwt

I'm enjoying your book.

Hi, my name is Brock Talon. Yes, I'm a recovering JW-aholic.

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