I'm still not 100% comfortable, but I do enjoy it immensely. My work surprised me this year and I was sooo embarrassed for the fuss. My family threw me my very first party in my whole life last month, and that was quite fun. But truthfully, I enjoy the doing it for others more. It's so fun. I remember arguing about celebrating birthdays when I was a JW, and one guy told me, "it's not that we don't think about others throughout the year, but birthdays give you the opportunity to make it special and to think about the person even more." He was right.
I LOVE Xmas. Even when I was a JW I loved the shiny sparkly-ness of it all. The families and friends getting together. I just love it.