I was an extremely sincere, zealous pioneer. I really cared about the people in the field. I thought their lives were in danger. I wanted them to get the best witness possible. Therefore, I cared what the literature offer for the month was.
Back in the late 80's and maybe early 90's (and maybe later; I don't remember), from time to time, the offer would be any of the older 192-page books. That disturbed me. Most of the people I talked with in the ministry knew very little about the Bible and needed publications that taught the basics. These people had short attention spans and needed books they could easily comprehend and that would keep their attention. A lot of the older 192-page books were not good for placing in the field; they were more for JWs who had some grounding in JW theology.
That's what disturbed me about placing the older 192-page books with new people in the field. I saw many really good calls who were left with publications that would do them no good. I wondered why, if the preaching was so important, we were placing those older books with people who were supposedly in danger of losing their lives. It kind of seemed to me that the org just wanted to move those books. I never could shake that feeling.
Then, in the last year or two or three I read an online account of a Bethelite who was shocked to find out the truth about the offer for the month. If I remember correctly, he said something to the effect that he had always thought that the GB prayerfully and seriously gave a lot of thought to what should be the offer for the month, basing their decisions on what would be best for the field. Then he was working behind the scenes at Bethel and was shocked to find out the truth - that the offer was just determined by some brother in charge of literature stocks, and his decision was based on what needed to move - what they needed to get rid of. My gut feelings were right; the org just wanted to get rid of certain publications.
I'm sure I have that account or a link to it copied somewhere on my computer in one of the many folders containing JW stuff that I need to process. But I can't find it now. If anybody knows what account I'm referring to, please direct us to it. Or if anybody is aware of any similar accounts, please relate.
Did anybody else ever have bad feelings about the offer for the month?