Geysir; Well done on getting so far. You're not alone, there's loads of people wityh similar experiences, and you can find them places like this!
As regards the elders, don't be intimidated by them. They only have power over you if you let them. Avoid them, or just tell them you don;t have the time, or, if it would be better for you, throw them some questions.
But be careful; it sounds like you might still be a little suseptable to the Witness jive, and they might be able to puch buttons on you. Only discuss your feelings with them if you're confident you can handkle their reactions and and come-back that might come your way (although the worst thing they can do is 'mark' you).
All the best