My dear granny hasn't been feeling well for some time and has had a problem keeping anything down. She had lost a lot of weight and gone for many tests. Those tests came back and on friday we were told she has cancer of the pancreas. The doctor said she has abut a month or so if she is lucky.
The most imprtant thing for me now is to keep the lil ol lady as comfortable as possible. The family wanted to put her in hospice and hospice were more than willing to take her because they could see the need. My grandfather however has gone manic and locks himself in the room with her for hours on end. He has decided that she won't go to hospice. I guess I understand him in a way, he has spent 60 years of his life with her. He is angry and was in denial about her condition.
There are times she forgets her age, where she is and who people are. I've been so close to my gran for many years. We've had our ups and downs, but she is my granny and I love her to bits. To see her literally fading away in front of me is so heart breaking. All I ever wanted was to give her as much as I could and make her elderly years good ones....I hope I did give her some joy and some happy times.
A couple of good memories: 1) When I was small I would lie on her bed for my afternoon nap and she would tell me stories that she had made up. 2) About 5 years ago, for her birthday I took her out to dinner, movie and then onto the casino - she had such an awesome time that we only left at 4 in the morning - with a good amount of cash in our pockets - it was one of her best nights. I got through to the local radio station and wished her happy birthday on air.