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by DeWandelaar 16 Replies latest jw experiences

  • Freedom4all
    Freedom4all

    Just a little story:

    In the beginning there was nothing….well, there was energy…some call it God.
    What if you were God and existed for an eternity?
    You couldn’t die, you just existed.
    There is no excitement, no danger, no joy.
    Nothing can go wrong.

    You get fascinated by the idée of how everything would change when there is danger.
    End of live would be danger.
    Live would get more value if it is limited.
    Like: money has more value when it is limited.

    What would you do?

    E=mc2 so you start experimenting.
    You convert some of your energy to matter.
    Everything you create has a beginning AND an END.
    Every star, every galaxy has an ending.

    You create live.
    First small, single cells, later larger.
    You experiment with all kinds of live.
    Sometimes it is not what you had in mind, so you terminate the dinosaurs and apply the knowledge you gained to a new species.

    You are a learning ‘God’.
    One of the things you invent is an emotion and you call it ‘love’.
    Love cannot exist if you are completely alone…I mean really alone in the universe.
    Love is an interaction between two entities.

    You create man in your image.
    Well, your image, plus all the features you don’t have,
    Live and death is part of man’s existents.
    Danger and excitement is his part.

    And you watch….closer to excitement you cannot come.
    Maybe you can even ‘feel’ what man can feel.

    I sometimes wondered why the bible says demons took possession of the body of a man.
    Is it a way of feeling something they other ways can’t?
    Do they feel what that man feels?

    And if man dies then E=mc2.
    He returns to energy….his spirit returns to his source, you, his creator.

    Since man was made of the energy of God…..
    Is man part of God?

    And if man is part of God….is the question then the same as in the beginning when God was alone?
    What is the purpose of my existents?
    What if there is no purpose?
    Why does God exists?
    He just is.

    And he made his existents to something worthwhile.
    It was his choice.
    Maybe we must make the same choice.
    Don’t ask what the purpose of your live is.
    Nobody else can decide what your purpose in live should be.
    MAKE it worthwhile….give it a purpose.

    You are God….you can do it.

  • DeWandelaar
    DeWandelaar

    Hi Freedom4all... the thing is that some not even gets the chance to search or chase for a purpose... some die even before they are born and some live and yet they don't. I sometimes consider myself as one of those... the ones that live and yet don't, well... not really. Do I enjoy things? Yes I do... I take pictures of things I like and love to bring back memories of things that are good in live... mostly it is from the past 8-9 years... I do things I like to do (within the boundaries I in)... I am a husband and I have kids. But overall... if every emotion is stripped of all these things (and I am quite good at that) things just don't matter...

    If you were a small kid and get it drilled into you from the start it is hard to suddenly switch a button and simply "enjoy". As a kid I almost ate those books that were printed... I was probably one of the most zealous, wiseassed witnesskids you could get and the insiders hated me for that... I remember I was excited when new books came out. I even read yearbooks of years before I was born. About what happened in the war with all those witnesses who disobeyed. I got beaten and battered by youths for my "faith", for me just being me and noone understood... not even my parents who were supposed to understand. So I did what I always did... I fought mindbattles and teached myself all the things that were necessary since there was noone else to do so.

    If you have a family and are on the wrong side of the fence since everyone is still in it is hard to enjoy the things. And it is even worse if you start knowing the truth... not necessarily the truth about the JW... but the truth about live and all that is in it.

    I have changed... mostly in the "faith"-department... but it is THE department that was mostly my life... my being. It was THE thing I was good at... denying the fact that it exists is some sort of selfdenial as well... I will cope with it... I will survive it... But it is a heavy burden to carry.

    I hate feeling alone and misunderstood

    O well... it is important to understand this... there is no spoon

  • Apognophos
    Apognophos

    Hey DeWandelaar. You and I joined within the same day or so

    The way I look at it, not much changes about life's purpose regardless of whether God exists. Either he exists, and doesn't care about us, or he exists and wants us to "become fruitful" and enjoy life while worshipping him (pretty unlikely), or he doesn't exist. No matter what, wouldn't we still be working to make a living, and trying to enjoy our lives as we can?

    The one unfortunate aspect of not believing in a caring God is that we can no longer count on God one day removing wickedness from the earth and resurrecting those who wrongfully died. There's no question that sometimes bad things happen to good people. But it's also rare that we don't share at least a little blame for what happens to us. That is, we shouldn't have been associating with someone dangerous, or we should have been more careful.

    A certain famous person died not that long ago from cancer and everyone lamented the loss of a "visionary". However, the cancer didn't strike randomly; it was in an organ that is damaged by the kind of diet that he practiced. Also, he postponed surgery for several months while he tried alternative therapy that didn't work. On some level, we are usually responsible for the bad that happens to us (yes, not always), even if we can't always anticipate the cause and effect. So the universe is not completely unjust.

    In any case, things don't look completely down for the future, do they? Even if Jesus never existed, that doesn't mean we can't follow his teachings, or that we can't have faith in humanity itself.

  • clarity
    clarity

    DeW ... an old saying, "life is a bitch & then you die"!

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    A reality ...yes. But not one that has ever stumped our

    ancestors or us. We go on, thru good & bad.

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    Who can understand it all ..... no one.

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    Perhaps if it were all marked out exactly how everything

    should be, rules for everything, waiting for paradise ....oh

    wait.....................that's what watchtower does.

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    What I am trying to say is .......by not KNOWING for sure,

    about the reasons & reality of all this........

    the amazing human mind, is challenged.

    We have the freedom to follow our bliss choice of reality.

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    It may be ....... that each one of us,.... is our own god.

    Much has been written on it.............

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    Cheer up sweety ......I have a lot of time alone when my thoughts

    fill me with despair as well.

    But again, amazingly, humans are able to rise to the challenge.

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    Be happy anyway ... you have much to live for.

    clarity

  • Hortensia
    Hortensia

    Life can be awful, shit happens. Once you realize that this life is finite, you start to find out how you can make the most of it. It isn't the grand things that make life good, it's enjoying small things. I'm never going to be rich and travel around the world, but there are a lot of good things right here to enjoy. Look around, find something you really enjoy.

  • The Quiet One
  • Freedom4all
    Freedom4all

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    Wandelaar, you have a PM.

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