Hello All!
Just wanted to introduce myself. I've made a few comments here and there on the lovely JWN I started to wake up to TTATT this year. Basically, I'm a born in JW and was baptized at 16. Lived a double life until I wa 25 and beat myself up about it constantly. I always felt inadequate, afraid and guilty.
Once, during a meeting with the elders, I explained to them that I thought I was having mental issues and maybe I needed therapy. They basically convinced me that therapy was = to bringing Satan into my mind. I immediately felt uncomfortable and always thought that demons were out to get me. What caused me to awaken? Well, there was a period where I didn't go to meetings (about two weeks) I felt so happy and so free. Then when my mother confronted me about it, I laid it on her that I simply needed time and space.
When she confronted me again, I told her that I didn't want to be a JW and wrote her a four page letter explaining the reasons. Since my dad is not a Witness, it has been pretty easy for me. The elders came by after I wrote a letter DA myself. It's been about three months and I'm still considered a JW. No one has really called or checked on me. LOL, I guess my mom tells them that I have issues. Not sure what's going on, but it's nice to be making my way out.
I currently live outside of the US, but plan on moving back in a few months. It was always my dream to not have JWs bother me and now I'm finally making it a reality. Anyway, I didn't want to make my intro too long or wordy...so hello to all!