Now I am in rehab. 45 days inpatient. The program was a 28 day but I had to play my social service caseworkers game. She said 45 days in, so the center said I could stay. They didn't mind as they were charging me $250.00 a day. I had no insurance so I was put on a payment plan. I had a blast there. I ran into an old charge nurse and my bailbonds man. I kept him on retainer to make sure I never spent a night in jail. When I got out I never argued at the fact my caseworker was bulling me. She made me stay in the same alcohol class that ran for 32 weeks for 5 years. The class met once a week and cost $75.00 per class. She also had me on UA's twice a week and had someone show up at my home once a week for a breathalizer. That was free. I also had to attend an AA meeting once a week. For 5 years! She let my son return to me after 6 months. I had planned on staying sober only long enough to get full costody of my son back and move out of the state. Some where inbetween I was no longer staying sober for my son and for me. I remained sober for 17 years until last June when I had yet another fight with my hubby over his growing reinvolvement with the witnesses. I drank a lot over 2 days before I attempted suicide again and failed. I checked myself into a psych ward. We all know how jw's feel about psych help and I was discharged after 2 days. I was able to get 3 out patient sessions before an end was put on that. God forbid I reveal anything about the witnesses. I am not a witness but that didn't matter. I was able to get an excelent assessment. With that and the therapist recomendations my primary care doctor put me on 3 different antidepressants, an anti anexity, 2 different drugs to help keep my mind from racing, and a stromg sleeping pill. Since my eating habits suck he advised my to take a multi vitamin. I also take a thyroid medication since my thyroid was removed due to cancer. More on that hell tomorrow night.
part 4 tomorrow
Sorry this is so long and taking several days to finsh.