Today my wife went to the arsembly and i had to work. My brother took me and picked me up. Today at work i felt overwhelmed and hoped and prayed for an opportunity to come up so i could vent. On the ride home my brother asked how i was. Welp, out spilled the beans. I told him how i hav doubts and now i know dirty secrets of the WT and how its a cult. He said "honestly, i have been worried about you for some time". He then explained to me how he felt i was kind of shunning the family for a bit and then he said something that confirmed all ive learned from steve Hassans book. I asked him if id been different. He told me that it was like, when i first started studying my personality changed and i wasnt me anymore. He told me that i would kind of turn on and off...and when my wife and i were away from the WT or if i was over alone i was my old self. He said he wanted to talk to me for so long but did not havr it in him to upset my faith and beliefs. I was shocked really. He told me no matter what hes there for me and that i hvve a long road to pull my wife out. Oh and hes "worldly". We then discussed his beliefs and how he believes there is a god but that humans have the inordinate ability to control others, utilizing God as his source. I agreed. It was a good day all in all. Then i got the text from my wife that i missed some great counsel at todays assembly. My stomach turned.
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