I've been out of the organization for quite a number of years, and still feel that uneasy feeling that was washed into every cell of my being by WT indoctrination since birth. Never seems to go away completely, does it?
I use to feel the need to talk about my experience in the organization to others, to worldlies, and they never quite seem to understand. Talking about it often seemed to sabotage my efforts in connecting with other human beings and forming friendships. I learned to talk less about it and become a student of what those without religious indoctrination do in order to start and cultivate relationships with other human beings. I'm getting more adept at this art. I sometimes falter, though, when doubt and that nearly intangible something akin to PTSD starts going off like alarm bells in my brain.
I finally made a wonderful friend who loves me so much that she is quite curious and wants to understand how my experience in the cult has shaped who she sees standing before her. Have you ever been getting to know someone and there is a topic broached in a conversation in which you find yourself looking at the other person as if peering across a chasm of experiences, or knowlege, or understanding, and you have to stop and insert something about your religious upbringing in order explain why this common experience shared by every other person is missing from your frame reference? I've rarely had to do that with her. She is always drawing me out like some wonderful therapist/friend with genuine interest, care, and attention.
We recently took a trip together to Washington DC, and while standing on the steps of the Lincoln Memorial, and somewhere between talking about history and politics, she asked me what the experience of going to the Kingdom Hall was like. I joked that my description would make the experience seem innocuous and mostly typical of religious meetings. She asked how I would feel about going taking her to a meeting. I asked how she would feel about going? She is a JewBu. She really wants to check it out. I am taking her next Sunday.