by sleepy 20 Replies latest jw friends
How true out4good3, that's a bit like the Woody Allen quote "It's not that I'm afraid to die, I just don't want to be there when it happens."
I think my realisation that this life indeed is all there is, well that's scary to me. I don't have much religious faith anymore, and the secular world is fightening.
I'm one of those "throwing the baby out with the bathwater" types that was spoken about on another thread somewhere!
let me see--WHAT does QUEENIE FEAR MOST -- calling a guy like RANDY gay to his face literally without some form of protection like a face mask--hear I go again judging someone else by what I would do...one time LISA and I was judged lisbians -- girlfriens NOT mother and daughter (WE hang out together a lot) only I know just how pissed off / ENRAGED LISA M. got __ had to put her in a head_lock (wrestling hold) to keep LISA M. from attacking the IGNORANT FEMALE REDNECK OAKIE -- and leaving scratches on their face and no teeth at all in their mouth AND THAT IS 4 starters !!!
Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans
I don't want to miss out on life while I'm making other plans.
It's only fear that makes you stay.
I fear growing older and not having answers to the questions. I have been on a journey of 35 years as a JW and I'm too tired and unhealthy to find another life. I LIVE IN FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN.
I fear: Not living out my life to the fullest.
*I'm trying to live out my life to the fullest now* I feel there has been a lot of time wasted in the with the whole j.w. thing. I lost my dad to suicide, my j.w. mother to cancer I'm going to take what I can now, with what I've got, and make it count. Learn something from all this and appreciating every day that I've got now.
I fear: That there will be nothing after this life.
Surely one day, we all can get together in love with no boundries.
Death being a messenger of joy and a transition, I'm anticipating the experiance. One needs to be content with who and what they are to avoid fearing death. What then do I fear, loosing credibility with those I love most and my reference group. Screw the rest!
carmel
The Reaper.
Slipnslidemaster:"Your feeble skills are no match for the power of the darkside."
-Emperor Palpatine
Unseen Apostate Directorate of North America
My biggest fear was that someone would find some small fault in me and have my reputation tarnished or have me DFed. I went through extraordinary means to ensure that I followed all of the bOrgs rules and regulations.
"As every one knows, there are mistakes in the Bible" - The Watchtower, April 15, 1928, p. 126
Believe in yourself, not mythology.
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From 1990 to 1998 I traveled by plane 48 times. I NEVER had a problem with flying untill Flights 43 and 44.
Flight 43: I was on an old turbo-prop-cargo-converted-to-passenger bucket, St. Paul via Anchorage Alaska. Hit a headwind and the plane did a dive engines sputtering. The pilots were able to pull out at 4000 ft. ....we were lucky. It didn't phase me afterward all that much. Since, due to probability statistics, I would have a better chance of winning a State Lottery then being in "plane crash" situation again.
Flight 44: Anchorage to Prince William Sound. I was on one of those 2 passenger single prop planes. We were nearing the landing strip. There was a low fog, with decent visability. Pilot notifies me that he just got something over his radio, another plane in the area had lost all communications and no one knew where it was. In the distance, we spied a small speck dead center of the windshield. It was the frickin plane heading RIGHT AT US! My pilot pulls to the right, the "lost" plane pulls to it's right...near hit.
At that moment, I realized that "probability statistics" do suck, and experience over rules it. After that, I have had a serious phobia of flying. Flights 46-48 I had to take some *cough* MEDICATION *cough* to get thru those flights. Since 48, I haven't flown, don't want to fly...frankly....I don't think I'm going to get on a plane unless I really really have to.
D8TA
I don't fear death. I do fear my daughter and wife dying before me though. I believe that when I die no one will sit in judgement of me except myself. Hence, no one can sit in judgement of me now. The energy in my body will disperse into the universe and become a part of it. Whether I remain conscious of that remains to be seen.
Dear Lord, please save me from your followers.
