Attended the meeting tonight and fill in reading.

by DS211 14 Replies latest jw friends

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  tornapart

  I haven't been for a couple of weeks. Finding it increasingly difficult. Everytime they say 'God's Organisation', the 'Faithful Slave', the 'Governing Body' even using the name 'Jehovah' over and over again like parrots makes me feel physically ill. The guilt tripping, the 'we must do more, more, more', the emotional blackmailing-ie God won't love us if we don't do this or do that and he will destroy us at Armageddon ... is stressful and anxiety inducing.

  Didn't Jesus say the truth would set us free? When I'm at a meeting I feel like I've been wrapped in heavy chains and a iron ball attached to my feet.

  Freedom is missing lots of meetings and feeling no guilt whatsoever.
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  DS211

  I hadnt been in 6 meetings lol....the paranoia and lack of "lovebombing" was almost supernatural
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  bohm

  The Martyrs! It prooves it! It says so right here in acts; okay we dont know quite who wrote it, what his sources were and so on, but it says so; so it must have happened exactly like that.

  And with the firm knowledge it happened, we can conclude it proove christianity to be true, like the martyrdom of Joseph Smith proove Mormon to be true!
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  DS211

  Exactly...
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  FadeToBlack

  Just don't go anymore. I haven't been there for several months. At first, on Sundays I got the "aren't you going to the meeting today?" Then it morphed into, are you going (if by chance I had happened to shave in the last few days and wasn't already out in the yard working). She never asks about service meeting night. Just Sundays occasionally now.

  I told her it is best for her because if I go I might stand up and shout during the WT 'discussion' : hey! this is all bullshit! For five seconds, allow yourselves to think! Don't be afraid...