May you all have peace!
Actually, while power certainly is a great part of the intrigue, there is another matter, including one of the MAIN 'desires' of WT loyalists: "security". How so?
Let's say you were a young man who 'believed' in the propaganda of an organization to the extent that you dedicated your life to it. However, in the course of your life and dedication, you came to realize some 'things' were 'wrong'. Certainly, for a time, you would most probably try to 'wait of Jehovah'. But... years past by quickly, dear one, you know, until one day you find that you are old. And NOW... you know you are not what you have purported to be, and those who influenced you are not what THEY purported to be. But...what do you DO? And... where do you GO?
You have been cared for in the cradle of comfort for most of your life, never wanting for ANYTHING, have travelled the world several times over, and people virtually LAUD you when you are in their presence in almost every land you enter. You have never held a 'real' job (you know, with timeclock, paycheck, threat of termination). You need not worry about medical care or retirement. And the trades you knew as a young man have been replaced... by machines... and younger men. What do you DO? Where do you GO?
Since you yourself are quite old, most of your family has passed on. And you either have no children (for you did not marry) or if you do perhaps they are 'worldly'. OR perhaps they have lived as you have... by means of 'widow's houses'. So who will take care of you? And who can do it at the level you are accustomed to? What do you DO? Where do you GO?
Yes, there would be some SERIOUS decisions to make: do you stand up for truth and righteousness, denounce the lies and deceit and risk being 'expelled'... and therefore 'cast out'... into the street (perhaps literally)? Or... do you 'get in, sit down, shut up... and hold on'... for LIFE? Do you acknowledge that YOU were in error, that YOU took part in misleading others, and that YOU may yet still have to answer for that, to man AND God? Or do you convince yourself that you did no wrong and have no culpability because pride... and cowardice... will not let you think otherwise?
Neither faith... NOR courage... is the possession of all men, dear ones. Indeed, it is not the possession of MOST men.
Power? Most likely. Pride? Quite certainly.
Peace to you!
A slave of Christ,
SJ