Hi everyone,
Please welcome Jen1 to the JWNforum. She posted for the first time on my thread 'making connections.' Let's all please encourage her!!!!
Best,
Losingit
welcome new poster Jen1 on my thread 'making connections'
by losingit 21 Replies latest jw friends
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ABibleStudent
Welcome Jen1, Happy Holidays to you. What's your story?
Peace be with you and everyone, who you love,
Robert
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Bangalore
Welcome to JWN,Jen1.
Bangalore
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Jen1
Hello it nice to find others who understand, thank you.
Brought up a jw. Pioneered from school. Left school at 16. Last few years have seen how hypocritical elders and wives are. Sick to death of never being good enough, thought off as bad. Being ignored by elders wives for months on end, because I cannot do as much because I take care of a sick husband. I have no friends in the world, because I was a good jw.
But I have plans to fade, which I guess it what I am doing now! Have not done door knocking for over a year, just reported small amounts. Have not been part of the school for couple of years. Missed odd Tue/Sun meetings.
Right now they are texting to visit and my husband has said thankyou but I do not feel well. Last meeting I went to got cornered by elder who said its such a shame we could not visit we will have to make it another time, this elder moved in to cong a year ago and this is the most the guy has ever said to me, even hello is hard for him, I just do not understand. New understanding light dont get it! Pedophiles two different ones at different times moved into our cong. it made me sick to be in the same room as them. One did move out eventually the other is reinstated.
If you are not in with the in crowd you are invited to nothing socially, you are just judged by them, you are not doing enough, oh my goodness no new clothes for the assembly Sunday meeting shame on you.
I consider myself to be a kind hearted person. Caring. The problem is jws make you feel bad/wicked for not going on service/not attending meetings/not being on service meeting/etc etc etc. And that eats away at you. Thank you for reading. Finding this site has given me new hope!
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Jen1
ps thank you all for your welcome.
Just realized how I really vented and I am sorry I guess its finally nice to have someone to talk to about how I feel.
Best wishes to all.
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AlphaMan
Welcome Jen1......definately sounds like you have been on the JW hamster cage wheel.
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James Jackson
Like the name, what area of the Country are you in?
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nonjwspouse
Welcome Jen1 so glad you are able to vent here. Make sure to keep venting here because it will help you to vent to people who "get' you.
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thedog1
Hi Jen 1. My wife is going through a similar situation but for very different reasons. We are in a very loving cong who are concerned if people are not well. She has had huge physical, emotional and psychological problems in the recent past, partly through trying too hard to live up to expectations of others. She also pioneered but found it too much, and now is turning into a bit of a hermit. some bros and sis are very concerned, genuinely, and that is nice. But she, probably like you, needs some room to breathe and decide what she will do next. She puts herself under pressure for not going on min, and attending meetings and being on school, but she told me recently that she just needs to take things at her own pace and try to survive. Just to live, and take it as she finds it. I am still serving as an elder and this makes her feel guilty for not being the good example of 'an elder's wife.' I have reassured her to forget that nonsense, and just try to find her own way to deal with it. Not the typical elder orthodox approach, but more a human being approach, I hope1
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Quandry
Welcome to the forum. Please come here and vent...we understand. You will never be good enough for the JWs. I hope soon you can leave the guilt behind and find things that you and your husband can enjoy doing together instead.