Happy New Year to you all!!!! I must say that I had a wonderful day with my daughter!!! I fixed her a nice breakfast while we talked about cooking, books, travel, friends and so on. I am thankful to know that at her house with her SM she really does not appear to have much respect for that woman as a person and never strives to be like her in any way. Thank Goodness lol....then we spent several hours on my bed laughing and crying over old videos when her and her sister were small and then also when little brother came along. I think it really hit her that although she was of tender age there was Mommy helping and directing her every step of the way. She watched herself as a mere babe love and depend on her mother and in turn saw her mothers love right there for her on the screen. A lot of tender moments together remembering and I can tell she is thankful that she always had a mother who encouraged her to be who she was and always supportive of her as she grew and developed into the woman that she is.
She also finally loves to read like Mama!!! She read all the Hunger Games and wants to read another trilogy that I told her I would buy. She loves the strength of the character and the ability to survive against all odds. I know that outside reading helped me to see the world in a different way myself as I grew up and hope that this will help her to be less afraid of the world and those who choose to live it in their own way. We also went to see the second Hunger Games last night.
Coming home she asked if I would take a personality test that she herself took and we took that time to talk about how each of us are personally and with others. The way we feel about life and the people we come across in life. She spoke of a family of JW in which her and the young boy liked each other for a short time, her first real crush, and how they all turned on her. It hurt her and I was able to comfort her a bit and tell her how proud I was of the way she handled it with grace and chose not to treat them in the same manner that they had treated her.
I chose not to bring up anything other than I told her that I speak to Bailey on Facebook ( a young girl who is df but her jw mom still speaks to her) and that she told me to tell Sierra hi and that she truly hopes that as mother and daughter we will be able to keep the lines of communication open as she and her mother have chosen to do. And that made Sierra smile and she really appeared to appreciate knowing that someone else her age was in her corner.
Sooo we are going to have another mother daughter day on the 20th!!! And at that time I have decided that I am going to take this out of her hands and do as "losing it" chose to do....I am simply going to tell her that not speaking to me is not something I as her mother am going to stand for because I love her and need to know that she is safe and healthy. I will let her know she can limit herelf if pressured but that I will still need a text, email or occassionaly phone call just because I am her mother and that is Necessary family business lol. I believe the winds of change are upon her and she is wanting to really discover herself and I am going to allow her that without making her feel it has to be on terms not her own....this is her life and the more I respect that and encourage her she will always be assured of having someone that is always there for her.....I am still hopeful and so thankful for all of your support. Each of you have been so comforting to me and little by little I continue to prepare myself but going to remain positive that in time I will have a even greater bond with my daughter as she on her own figures out this thing called life :)
