Thank you my sister. May you also have peace from our Lord.
You've been told umpteen times to tone this crap down but here we are again.
Simon, I may have to go for a bit, as I have some things to do at home, and also have work this afternoon/evening. But I do want to want to and will answer your questions. I would ask and hope that you withhold judgment from what others SAY I believe and feel and do, until I can answer you myself, and honestly.
I've decided it would be better if you just go. At best this forum is just enabling your delusion to continue. At worse you simply derail topics and aggrevate other posters because ultimately, you simply say "I believe [some nonsense]" and repeat and repeat and repeat without regard to other people's opinions or logic. You flip-flop on what your beliefs are, what bible verses you will accept (one minute you don't believe the old testament and then you're quoting old testament verses) and basically dance around refusing to be pinned down on anything and selectively ignoring any point that is inconvenient to you.
I don't believe you are capable of answering honestly or taking part in a proper discussion which is what this forum is here for, not for you to preach your vile beliefs that babies dying in agony and torment is somehow "good". I think you simply need help, but we're not able to prescribe the kind of help I think you need so goodbye.