Vidiot: I am also unable to stop thinking. My independent thinking kept me from "progressing" with the JW's, and ultimately my mind rescued me from the grips of their control.
Like I tried to explain to my JW father and sister (when asked):
Do you agree that joining a different religion, especially one such as the JW's, is a very serious commitment? Your life could depend on it! ("Yes, it does!")
Here is another analogy. If you were going to change employers, and go to work for another company, that would also have a big impact on your life. (He is a salesman). If a new company came to you, and wanted you to leave your old boss and commit to working for them, you would be smart to do some research about that company. ("Of course.") You would want to know about how the company started, what business they have conducted in the past, and maybe talk to some past customers. People who have dealt with this company before, can give you a lot of insight into how they do business, and help you to decide if you want to uproot your career and go start selling their products.
We did take a serious look at the JW religion, and we thought about joining. We listened to them for a long time, and "did our own research," as they suggested. When we discovered questionable things about their origins and history, they refused to answer our concerns. This was a huge red flag. (Here, my sister piped in with, "Do you mean 1975?"... to which I replied, "There were the false prophecies and some pretty serious scandals that you have probably never heard about.")
At this point, when they were both shifting in their seats (and it was just starting to get good... haha), our conversation was interrupted by other family members walking in the door. My JW sister quickly left with her children. I can't be 100% sure, but I'm going to assume that this was one of those "encounters" that affected her emotions, and convinced her to go further with her avoidance of me.
Not only do you have to stop thinking, but you are not allowed to talk to people who think, and "Know too much." The seeds I have planted, could germinate some day... although her mind is pretty barren right now.
I'm pretty sure that I make her doubt, and she does not feel equipped to think for herself. Even before the JW's took over her mind, she struggled with making her own decisions. I think she finds a lot of comfort in being "led" by the society.
She has not used the term "apostate" to describe me to my face, but that is most likely her opinion... "Smart big sister is a hungry wolf in sheep's clothing!"
I have a big concern about the definition of "apostate information." Does that only apply to someone who "knows" about Jehovah's organization, or would news reports or even Bible verses that contradict the Watchtower be apostate information? Old (and current) publications can also be considered apostate, if you are not obedient in your interpretation of them. Any independent thought is apostate.
Why did Jehovah give us "free will?"