After years of looking down on me for not being "in the truth", being told (more or less) that my daughter died because I did not have the "truth" and therefore God's approval. My sister has, after forty years of marriage and fifty years of being in the truth....left her husband and her dis-fellowshipped son and gone to live with our other sister (who by the way is disassociated)
I am amazed at this turn of events, as I have always been led to believe that they were a fine example of how complete and spiritually protected they were as a family for being in the JW religion. Now I find that her son has been on drugs for over a decade and her husband is hooked to the internet when ever he is not at work or going "out on the work". All those damned years that I have been made to feel "bad" and "faithless" have been a scam upon my sense of self as a fairly good hearted person with a sense of humour and a love of art. So now the congregation will be in a sort of uproar, as they have always been seen to be the kind of JWs in good standing, zealously condemning the world, education, counseling, people in other religions............on and on it goes. Her world has fallen apart as she realises that her religion has not saved her son or changed the basic problems within her marriage. However, for the sake of appearances they have kept up this facade for decades.........only to end up looking like fools as far as I am concerned. I recall her attacking me vigorously for encouraging her to send her son to a rehab in order for competant people to help him out. His being disfellowshipped for smoking was the beginning of a down ward spiral and he never managed to get over the horror of being ignored at every meeting he went to. Now. As of yesterday, after finally discovering how bad his health is and how dangerously close he is to dying, upon consultation with a rehab nurse (they had to in the end) She has walked out of the situation. She said to me on the phone.."The only joy in my life, is in serving Jehovah and being close to His organization..." I kid you not! She actually said this to me. I think she is mentally ill, I really do. And I blame her self righteousness and her gory desire for armaggedon, her blindness to the GB and so many other mad factors in her cultish nature for this sad out come. I am really really angry at her and to evilly honest. There is a part of me that wants to poke a finger at her and say.........."...how truly blessed you must feel within this loving organization that YOU claim Jehovah has provided" The irony would be lost on her though as she has ceased to be able to think coherently..............raving a bit sorry
