I have been a Witness for a long time and still serve as an elder. There have been a lot of changes to deal with in the last six months or so since I stumbled on this site due to questions I had about all the recent changes in understanding published in the WT. Many posters here talk about a cult personality and a real personality. I'm not sure if I agree with that 100% but I can see now a predominant attitude that takes hold of your mind as a Witness. It has the effect of creating a 'them and us' viewpoint. So for the last 30 years plus I have kept those who are non-Witnesses at arms-length, physically, emotionally and psychologically.
But I have been involved in teaching for the last few years, and particularly in the last two years, through my work, I have met some wonderful young people, both young teenagers and university students. This has had the effect of breaking down some of the walls I have put up for many years, and caused me to think of long-forgotten ideals and dreams I had. Their youthful outlook on things has refreshed my jaded thinking. As humans, we crave knowledge and new things, and at the KH I'm afraid it is the same thing all over again.