by minimus 27 Replies latest jw friends
OR - If like many even here - you left in body only - and secretly
harbor the idea you "know the "truth" and fear other churches for thier
"false doctrines" and secretly believe they have the "truth" and believe
by leaaving you are no longer loved by Jehovah and will die at Armgeddon,
this unfortunately is the state some live in.
It deserted me like some crackhead mother who left their child at WalMart. Clean up on aisle 6.
Get busy living or get busy dying. Waiting for the end is a lesson in futility. So fatalistic. So skewed the perspective. Now who can feel guilty about that?
No, they were/are disseminating falsehood. We ought to do what is right the best we can.
I never felt guilty about leaving in terms of the doctrine. It became more and more clear the more I learned that I'd made the right choice. I did feel guilty because I had to hurt people I cared about in order to follow my conscience. I had to leave behind everyone I once knew and broke bread with.
What hurt the most, and this dawned on me as I was reading CoC the first time, was that sense that no one I knew would ever believe me if I told them any of what I learned. They could never imagine that the people they trusted most were capable of manipulating information and people's lives in a way that I can only describe as evil.
But it certainly can't be described in the terms from the old loaded language, as in "leaving the truth". The truth was never there in the first place, so the only thing left...was "leaving".
--sd-7
Just the other day I said to myself it has been almost 3 years since I set foot in a kingdom hall. No guilt just sad that I spent a good protion of my life in this cult. I am so happy I no longer waste my time with the Wt. Still Totally ADD
I think of it as freedom to be human. So wonderful that every emotion and experience no longer has to be couched in jw-speak.
No. I thought the WTS owed everyone a huge apology and should feel real guilty.
i felt relief that the guilt was gone, being a JW is to live in perpetual guilt.... Never achieving enough, a list of things you wont ever succeed in or do enough of.........ministry hours, study preparation, contributions, living a lie, natural urges and desires, not being allowed to discuss, question or doubt the gov body....
The deal was that joke-hova didn't carry its end of the deal, and just existing was not satisfactory. Thus, I was not going to carry my end, either. I revoked my dedication to that slimebag. When I use my left brain to come to the conclusion that I would be better off outside that religion, regardless of whether it was the truth or not, there is no guilt because it was planned based on rational thinking. And, when I thought about the guilt trip I would have if I made it into the new world, even if it was the paradise advertised, and all the females were dead on my account because they couldn't stand me around, that would dwarf any guilt about not doing enough. Hey, at least the "You're not doing enough" guilt trip will end at Armageddon.
No guilt.
Relief, mostly.
A bit of sadness re. my devout JW mom.
