Anyone who has awakened to TTATT and conscientiously left the organization--especially a once-prominent individual from a prominent multi-generational tribe of JWs-- after decades of devout, high-profile "serve-us," who continues to put in an annual appearance at the Memorial thoroughly subverts and undermines, by this one act, any hope s/he may entertain that his/her departure will stir family or former friends to question the whole Watchtower bamboozle. By this one concession s/he assigns him-/herself by every single JW to their handy and dimissive purgatory: the "spiritually-weak."
Nothing blasts a louder, clearer, and more deliberate message to the JWs who personally knew you and those familiar with your JW bona fides that you are not merely "not making the meetings" or "spiritually-weak" but that there is a conscientious reason you have rejected the entire Watchtower Society life than choosing to forego what they know you know to be their one-and-only holy and sacred event of the year, the Lord's Evening Meal
Such a singular disregard cannot and will not be misconstrued. It puts thinking minds to work. All accomplished without a word.
Conversely, every appearance you continue to make at the Memorial confirms to JWs that they're right and, thereby, superior and that you are one to be judged and looked down upon because you couldn't/didn't cut it. It says "I'm no longer 'spiritually-mature' enough to make the weekly meetings regularly or to go out in field service, but I still know this is The Truth so I attend the Memorial."
You hand them the very justification they so relish to self-righteously contemn you later as a "submarine Witness" deserving of their pity, or worse. More tragically, though, you squander your prize opportunity to nudge the brighter ones to seriously ponder the possible reason for your shocking departure.
Attending the Watchtower's Lord's Evening Meal is a colossally misguided concession to go-along-to-get-along for anyone whose intention or desire it is to awaken(!) others to consciousness.
AMNESIAN
Captive 7/1972 - 2/2001
Last Memorial attendance: April 8, 2001