Sorry to hear that stuckinarut,
Hope they put you out of your misery soon by letting you know one way or the other.
Nothing worse than dying in slow-mo. It's often the uncertainty that's the most gut-wrenching to endure. Cruel really.
Course, you could always beat them to the punch by falling on your sword.
Either way, rest assured this is'nt a reflection on you, it's them, it's AALLL them. Sadistic bastards.