by snowbird 30 Replies latest jw friends
@NJWS
I can actually feel your frustration because my now-deceased mother was the same way.
So sorry about that.
I find that refusing to become stressed (ABOUT ANYTHING) works wonders for me.
Blessings to you as you deal with your husband.
Love.
Sylvia
Snowbird I am glad you are keeping better. That must have been a disturbing experience.
Anti-depressants have a part to play in helping lots of people on the road to recovery. They have saved many lives. As nonjwspouse said it is a matter of balance. Take good advice from a health professional and try to understand your options. Many anti-depressants do take a few weeks to begin to work.
Jeanette - please try to avoid scare-mongering.
Thanks, Cofty.
Sweet Jeannette ain't a-scarin' me at all.
Once you've been through the vale of deep shadow as I have, all things are relative.
(((((SYL, and similarly suffering friends)))))
Love,
CC
Yes. I was prescribed Zoloft, and was pretty optimistic since I personally knew someone who was greatly helped by it. After several days on a very low dose, I felt like crap. I felt like I was going more crazy than I has been at first. Then one day, within a week of starting the stuff, about the middle of the day, I heard a voice from within me distinctly say, "You really need to kill yourself and get this over with." I had never, even in my darkest hours, ever heard/ experienced anything like that before. Needless to say, I was off Zoloft the next day.
You should join the GB help write the "new scrolls." LOL!!! Seriously, I hope you are doing well. I tried taking some anti- anxiety meds, but they made it nearly impossible to work physically. Then I realized that I was not crazy, my religion was.
DD
CoCo
@BOC
For real!
@DD
LOL.
Thanks.
Glad you are doing better Snowbird
If it was possible to do a number count, I wonder how many of us here suffered/suffer with anxiety/panic issues? I know my anxiety got much better after I had my lucky escape from the Borg......it was no fun being made to feel so completely useless and unworthy because I couldn't go out on the ministry and really affected my self-esteem too Boo to those who ever made us feel like that!
Thanks, Paula.
The JW religion is one of the most stifling on earth.
It's no wonder so many of us became physically and emotionally ill while trying to keep up with its demands.
Snowbird-- last fall, (I was not on medication though), I had a pyschotic episode, I was very paranoid of others even of my husband, and I was by myself one day & was so sure that angels were telling me that my youngest daughter was dead. I didn't hear voices, it was more like I just knew I was being given knowledge. I hid my cell phone in a drawer thinking I was going to get a phone call any minute about my daughter & I was terrified any minute the front doorbell would ring. I walked down my hallway & her picture hanging in the hallway suddenly was her lying in a coffin-- the picture of her was wearing a black graduation gown and her white arm was across her body holding a diploma-- but the picture became her as a skeleton in a coffin. Then I cried for about a half hour, deep deep sobs that racked my whole body and I was in a delusion that I was having labor pains & that my daughter came into the world with labor pains & was leaving this world with labor pains.
The most horrible experience of my life, seemed so real. I spent a week in a hospital because of it. After that I never doubted my bipolar diagnosis & take my health even more seriously than before. If I feel like I'm getting manic, I take a hot bath, take one Tylenol PM and have a really good nights sleep-- it works every time.
I am on an antidepressant for bipolar, Latuda, but a low dose. I hate taking medications, but after what I went through I am willing to take them. I don't take Depakote any more, they had me on them for about 6 months-- I was sluggish/sleepy all the time, and my leg muscles starting feeling funny when I went on my walks.
Medications are no joke, and you have to have a really good doctor. I go to the doctor once a month, sometimes more anytime she adjusts my dose. It really sucks suffering from mental illness because it's not like you can talk to people about it. I hid it from my coworkers when I was off work last fall for 6 weeks by telling everyone my back went out LOL
