As a result of all of this, I often wonder how I come accross to others, because I still don't feel that I know myself. Yikes!
~QUANDRY
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From that post of yours, I think it's safe to assume you are a sincere, earnest and humble woman.
I myself struggled between outside opinions from the Philosophy books I was reading, and dedication to the Watchtower. So much so, that I don't think I know who I am either. Spent so much time without an identidy.
Now, skeptical of everything, It's as though I am permenently on the fence for good. Maybe, it's not so bad. Hemingway once said the only way to know if you can trust someone, is to trust them. I like that, but frankly, after being so anti trusting to anyone, it's much harder to get hurt. Though the quality of your life seems iffyer.
I occasionally ask myself why I am on this earth, and can't come up with squat diddly. (Much worse than Diddly Sqaut)
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Good god I went off topic a lot back there.
Bottom line, I wouldn't be too concerned with who you are. Just focus on being the best person you can be. And if you don't know what that is, research who you believe to be good role models, and take some of there life lessons and make them apart of your ideals. Have a form of integrity to a standard. Then find another person who seems relativly well off, and differentiate their good qualities from their bad. And yeah, that's what i do. Take the best part of people I meet and make it part of my personality.
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