What was your out of control, sobbing moment with this stupid religion?

by ctrwtf 20 Replies latest jw friends

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  ctrwtf

  I have often laughed at public outpourings of emotion. Just google Mike Schmidt"s retirement speech in which he loses it and blithers on about his career. Completely douche chilling.

  But to be honest, I had a moment recently when I literally balled my eyes out. For some reason I was watching my kids interact and I thought of all the children that have never been born because "the end is near." It hit me like a ton of bricks. I completely lost it.

  After regaining my composure, I got angry at this evil institution that strips so many people of what are basic human needs and desires in the name of god. It's unimaginable that there are those who put so much faith in the GB that they deny themselves even the pleasures of family life.

  Woe be it to the woman with a suckling child at Armageddon! This was always the justification for the unspoken yet very real prohibition on childbirth. "Responsible child rearing in the time of the end" was the title of a talk at the 1986 District Convention. How about the fact that it would be unchristian to refuse assistance to the weak in a time of distress? Yet many of the uber faithfull have gone without having children.

  I'm happy to write that even back then my inner self told the GB to F off. My two kids are my greatest joy in life. They're smart, funny, successful and thankfully living apart from this mind controlling horseshit.

  This was my out of control moment. What about yours?
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  Wild_Thing

  I had three that I remember.

  1. I have not had good experiences with Elders. My dad was one, to begin with, and the rest of the elders in the congregation we grew up in were no better. Fast forward to when I was around 20 or 21. I am sitting in the Kingdom Hall and they announce from the stage that my brother in law had been appointed an elder. I balled like a baby. Everyone there thought they were tears of joy, except my family knew better. I loved my brother in law and I knew it would ruin him. I begged him to not let it harden his heart, or let the power go to his head. He is still a good guy from what I can tell, but since I am not in the borg anymore, I have no idea how he is as an elder.

  2. The last district convention I ever attended. The bible drama was about how when Moses went into the mountains, they built a god out of gold and Aaron disobeyed Moses, so the Earth opened up and swallowed Aaron. And just Aaron, we need to listen and obey what God's organization has to say or we will end up like Aaron. I left and cried. I knew I could never go back to any meeting or anything again, and I didn't.

  3. When I told my mother I will not be a witness anymore. She told that Jehovah would destroy me and she stopped talking to me. I cried. Really hard. I was in my early 20s, which to me now, seems like a baby. I actually cried for months. I thought the shunning would be forever, but it only 6 months. Since I was never disfellowshipped, I guess she realized she could have something to do with me if she wanted. And she really did! She was hurting herself by trying to give me the silent treatment.
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  UFCFan

  For me it's had to be when my parents said I can't go after my dream of becoming a football star because I wouldn't be able to make meetings and because I'd have worldly teammates. I wanted to start off playing for Philadelphia Union Academy and eventually make it to the big leagues and play for Chelsea or Arsenal, and represent USA in the World Cup. But now none of that is going to come true because I can't start playing as a youth, because of meetings...

  Either that or the time my parents said I couldn't like Warhammer 40k or I'd be possesed by demons.
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  blondie

  

  Never cried but it was an emotional moment, talking to BOE about their protecting a child abuser and punishing the victim, and they lied and when pinned to the board, showed no emotion or love for the victims. One elder kept interuppting me until I told him to sit down and shut up...and he did and the rest of the elders followed suit.
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  Wild_Thing

  Blondie ... I love that! You have no idea how many times I have wanted to tell an elder to sit down and shut up!
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  earthfire

  Being shunned by my brothers and sister. But especially my brother Ryan who is like my twin. It's been years, I get on with things but still have my bad days on occasion. The pain never goes away you just learn how to live with it.
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  Divergent

  Wild Thing,

  "The bible drama was about how when Moses went into the mountains, they built a god out of gold and Aaron disobeyed Moses, so the Earth opened up and swallowed Aaron"

  Okayyy... that's not how I remembered it.....
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  Wasanelder Once

  When my mother, who busted her ass for these people, was ignored when she was dying. She gave of her time, abilities and belongings to support all the activities she was asked to take part in. She cooked for many, organized peoples wedding dinners and helped to comfort people when they were overcome by sadness. And they pissed on her by staying away as she became weaker and weaker from congestive heart failure. They NOT ONCE BROUGHT FOOD OVER TO HER FOR MY DAD OR HER AS SHE WAS TOO WEAK TO COOK. But once she was dead they rallied and a few brought food over for my dad, an unbeliever, so they could kiss his ass and have him join them in slavery. He told them to shove thier food up thier, well you know. He can't stand the phoneys. I sobbed for her being so mistreated. Such good friends.
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  Focus

  Being shunned by my brothers and sister. But especially my brother Ryan who is like my twin. It's been years, I get on with things but still have my bad days on occasion. The pain never goes away you just learn how to live with it.

  earthfire, I feel for you. I don't know where in the world you are, but has it occurred to you they are doing this because they have been brainwashed by an evil religion into doing so, and that the "church" of this religion may be legally liable - perhaps to the tune of millions of dollars - for the enormous pain their wicked BS have caused you?
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  Wild_Thing

  Okayyy... that's not how I remembered it.....

  You're right! Now stop giving me that look! The drama was about Korah and ended with Korah being swallowed up by the Earth, along with a lot of other people. All for disobeying God's "organization".