WT Study, Sunday 6th July 2014.

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  • Billy the Ex-Bethelite
    Billy the Ex-Bethelite

    This will probably be a confession that will creep many out, or many will have completely opposite opinions on...

    When I had a computer and dial-up at bethel, I got into viewing porn. It must have been happening a lot based on the number in bethel that were caught or confessed. I never confessed or was caught, but there was a lot of guilt and shame. I often tried to quit, but it was hard, very hard (innuendo intended). For all the condemning by WT, it didn't stop me, it just made me more careful and more curious. It was a battle that I couldn't win, and really didn't seem to want to win.

    Once I mentally left, and had high-speed internet, my usage escalated. After reading a couple threads here and some articles, and seeing a couple videos, I found www.yourbrainonporn.com . I certainly hadn't escalated as much as the guys that recorded their stories there. After researching how porn can influence many male brains and taking inventory of how I saw that porn had affected me and could affect me, I quit my porn viewing habit. It's been quite a while now, and I never had a relapse. For me, quiting my porn habit became the logical thing to do and has improved my quality of life.

    How weird is that? All the years I was a JW, even an elder and bethelite, all the prayer, talks, and WT lessons, and I couldn't kick the porn habit. Once I became an exJW and have opportunity to go for whatever porn I want... and I have kicked the habit. And it's not like I'm acting out all kinds of sexual craziness like I thought I would if I left da troof. Disappointing? Not for me. I'm finding my normal and it's surprisingly satisfying.

    Okay, yeah, I'm weird.

  • Oubliette
    Oubliette

    Billy, quick: Don't think of blue!

    The WT's obsession with porn only focuses on the issue. I don't know how many times I wasn't thinking of porn until it came up in a WT article.

    It's just weird that the WT writers (apparently with GB approval) think it's acceptable to discuss this stuff in public meetings with children present.

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