The thing is, this friend already went to the convention. Whatever happened on Sunday really got to her. She was desperate for me to attend. So the only reason she is going again is for me.
At this point, I'm not on anyone's radar. I never answer the doors when the JWs come by, and I don't think they know where I live. I've been faded now for about 5 years and with the exception of a few family funerals early on and the Memorial each year - I don't attend any meetings.
This is an appeasement move. I don't plan on going back, although I have to admit to considering it lately just because I'm having a hard time making friends on the outside. I feel like as long as I am open, and willing to talk and at least consider what they have to say it keeps them at bay and calm than just telling them I'm not going to consider it. I'd rather be guilty of leading them on a bit than have them think of me as dangerous because I disagree with what they believe. I'm not a spiritual danger to them because I don't care enough about what they believe.
anyway...I'll follow through because if I pull out that might be a big red flag to her - but I want to be able to anticipate as much as possible what will be thrown at me.