I don't know if it has been a good thing or a bad thing to have found this site. I stumbled on it about a year ago as I mentioned in previous posts. It has opened my eyes to so many things, but right now all is confusion. Each time I read things here I can feel my faith as a witness leaching away. Now, every time I read the wt publications it is within the framework of what I have learned here. The (possibly false) peace of mind I had believing in what Jehovahs Witnesses do is now gone. I was at an international assembly quite recently and even though I enjoyed it in a general way, I just couldn't get into the spirit of it. Some of the bros had banners which they unfolded reading "see you in Paradise" and I thought, really?
I know that others here will probably say that this is a natural part of the process of discovering TTATT but it is a bit tricky going to meetings and feeling very different about it all. And my wife is still very much a witness, even though she sees some of the holes. So in a sort of holding pattern right now...